Almost a year, and last I checked time has not stopped. Today, once tomorrow, became yesterday. It’s easy to conjure up the words to describe the passage of time (I’ve done it quite often). The poetry is cliche. The words barely capture anything tangible anyway. I can say “the sun rose and set”, but only the image of sunrises and sunsets linger. Simply put, the days came and went, and with them came great news, adventures, and encounters. Time and happiness, two concepts I’m fixated on like a sunflower seeks the sun.  I’ve learned a lot about myself this year. Growth is a good measure of a certain kind of lasting success, I’m convinced, and awareness is it’s foundation. I wish I can say with any certainty that epiphanies and self-reflections will somehow yield not only the old, tired and seemingly always arrived-at course of action; but that also someday soon, the missing action that goes with the course will surface and accompany the “plan”. The sentence possesses its subject and predicate, time for some punctuation. I’ve listened. I’ve let the world hear my voice. Now its time for something else.

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and you do are in harmony.” -Mahatma Gandhi

I pray for the strength.


“If you’re not careful, time will take away everything that ever hurt you, everything you have ever lost, and replace it with knowledge.  Time is a machine: it will convert your pain into experience. Raw data will be compiled, will be translated into a more comprehensible language. The individual events of your life will be transmuted into another substance called memory and in that mechanism something will be lost….” -Charles Yu

What makes us who we are? Events? Experiences? Memories? Emotions? A combination?

The happy moments in our lives are fleeting, they pass by unnoticed, but their effect leaves a subconscious imprint, for they have a subtle (but powerful) effect on who we are. Without happiness we’re lost.  The painful moments though,  leave a more lasting visible impression (the wounds). The hurt often dictate the changes we make (or fail to make) in life. Perhaps without pain, we’re also lost.  It begs a question though: does happiness, if followed by pain, cancel the whole formula out, in essence making it zero? Pointless? No matter what “the whole formula” represents…. CONTINUE READING


“Most people think that shadows follow, precede or surround beings or objects. The truth is that they also surround words, ideas, desires, deeds, impulses and memories.” -Elie Wiesel

You can be early, or late, but regardless there will always be some kind of waiting. The wait can be brutal.

Buddhist often say that the reason people suffer is their inability to accept that all things are impermanent. Even the start and finish mutate. Change is constant. People and events, come and go, and we’re left with nothing more than a memory and a need to find a meaning for it all.  Our preconceived notions of life often get in the way of our happiness, and letting go of them is part of the change we so frequently fear but need. Our own ideas and thoughts are often our enemy. Sometimes we must look beyond ourselves. CONTINUE READING

Today…Shit happens!

“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” -Buddha

You plan to go in that door right there. It looks like all the others-glass with a black frame-but it stands out to you. You choose that door.

Sometimes we don’t spend great amounts of energy on a choice or decision, many times we do; and often we forget that there are variables that we can never think to consider as we’re constructing our equation. CONTINUE READING

Daily Picture: 10/3/2010

View From The Top

Everything looks peaceful from the air. Is this how God feels when he checks up on us?